I love to see my loved ones seemingly enjoying life, enjoying in the sense that there are no worries at all. Everything is fine and everyone is happy. That’s a vision that I want to fulfill but terrible tested my time and several matters that struck my daily living especially my plans for them. Well that the push that I am trying to bear in mind always but relatively there is a pull that’s why sometimes I felt hopeless. Though feeling losing hope, I still try to continue but carrying the burden due to lose of hope. I’ve been to a point of hopelessness that there seems no light at all in my path. My mind was totally empty and was out of any idea. Good thing still that I can’t dare to do those deadly stuffs. So, little by little I go though feeling so empty at all. Still, now I facing a lot of trials in life and same as usual, little by little I go.